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Blind faith

April 11, 2019

Stepping out onto blind faith is difficult for me yet today I did. I was told to make a job out of a job of writing my book . Out of careful prayer and consideration I made that firm decision to move forward with my book.... I am going to be honest with y'all that today I have felt peace for the first time in my life moreover, a total peace of mind.
I'm actually relieved to have made this concious decision to move forward with this for somehow I feel like this is my calling.  You see, God didn't preserve my life for no reason for there is a reason and that is to reach the masses and to reach the drug dealer, drug addict,  prostitute, gangsters and even the pimps or someone who is in the gay lifestyle and victims of molestation and rape.  I came from all of it and I am the only girl that survived all of that that I was out there with in that type of a lifestyle and got out to only turn to the gay lifestyle for my extreme fear of being intimate with a guy.
Being with a man quite frankly freaks me out and makes me nauseous to think of it! I know that today started for me to reclaim my time back that Satan stole from me. I have had enough trying to figure out what is best for me. I'm going to walk in obedience to God and say " Here I am good,bad or indifferent and you just take this and I'm here to follow. " First of all I got to learn how to follow before I can lead!
Karla ( Journey to Totality)

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