These days we watch so much garbage on TV and movies and we think " oh that won't happen to me " or " it is just a TV show or a movie " . Let's not forget pornography either! The more we watch the more Satan has gotten a foot hold into out hearts, desires and more importantly our minds. The delusions which are lies become so strong that we are now chasing the illusions. Satan works first by putting lies into our minds and here we are chasing the illusions that's all called instant gratification!
I'm going to tell my Testimony as it exactly is tonight. First I was a child and I was being molested by my adopted father who happens to be a Baptist pastor and he was a pervert in nature and he took his perversion out on me and it became both of our reality, his being a predator and mine a victim of sexual perversion. Then not only did it become reality but it became torturous for me to the point where I ran away from home and I fell into the hands of a much older man and he whispered sweet things into my ear and took me to a party back in 1986 where crack cocaine was a epidemic here in this country. The next day he turned around and turned me out. I was trafficked from city to city and state from state and into Canada for over two decades. I was shooting up everything that I could get my hands on and back in 2006 I was diagnosed with having hepatitis c and I was sick yet I kept shooting up and prostituting.
The day of divine intervention happened back in October 24th, 2007 where God was merciful and gracious to me where I was slapped with a federal indictment of 13 counts of drug trafficking and drug sales and conspiracy. I weighed 87 pounds and I was lifeless and there was no life into me. I was detoxing in jail for 3 weeks and I almost died twice in jail for detoxing. I was in a situation where I was faced with a firm decision to stay locked up or get covered up or to sober up.
I gave Alcoholics anonymous a try and I got a sponsor while I was in jail she gave me a few simple set of directions and I first thought it was a flimsy reed but it became my way of living which was a cut above that what I was doing. I thank God for putting me into alcoholics anonymous for it was my life support machine until I got saved about 5 weeks ago. It sustained me until I got to the real deal and that's the Lord Jesus Christ! I got led to the Lord by these two police officers that I saw on Periscope and I am standing here before only because of the tender mercy and the grace of God.
I want to drive home to y'all that fantasy becomes reality and as the bible says a man thinketh so is he. The flesh became a problem and I almost died however as Jeremiah 29: 11 says. For I know the plans that I have for you declares the Lord plans to prosper you and not to harm you but to give you a future and hope.
That is coming true for me now and it's in the midst of being carried out! Its been a long time coming however I couldn't hear until I could hear and see when I could see.
Please don't give up five minutes before the miracle happens.
Journey to Totality, ( Karlyn)
Short of twenty four hours ago I was preparing for the biggest thing ever that I had to do. I was watching a scope on Periscope and there was a drawing of balloons in the sky and flowers and a fire. The Holy Spirit spoke to me and asked me how much longer I was going to hold onto a major resentment and pain that my father put me through? I had enough of holding onto it once and for all I was going to take the cotton out of my ears and shut my mouth and listen! I was told to write my resentments on paper and burn it and write a letter to my father and to forgive him. I did then I went to the store and bought a balloon and flowers and I was told to go up to the mountains and tie the letter to the ballon and to let go of it and I did and when I did that I felt the needless guilt and shame that I was carrying inside of me totally gone. I did this at three am Saturday and I now feel so liberated and I feel so relieved! I usually have flashbacks everyday and I have had not one!!! God...
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