From not speaking for the first eight years of my life I was trained to be observant and to act as though I didn't know anything. I was diagnosed with having autism and back then they used speech therapy to get me to speak. The amazing thing about this whole situation is that I could write very fluently and when I was in fourth grade I spelled at a eighth grade level. I was silenced for the first eight years of my life due to the sexual trauma that was taking place in my home. I was no more autistic as the man in the moon, just that I dealt with the trauma of being molested and exploited by my father. Later on in my life I was in a National prostitution ring and I became known as the tasmanian bitch because my tongue could be very shrewd and full of hate.
There's power in the tongue and it's in Psalms 52: 2 and it says this: Your tongue plots destruction: it's like a sharpened razor, you who practice deceit. 3. You love evil rather than good, falsehood rather than speaking the truth. 4. You love every harmful word, O you deceitful tongue.
The reason why I got that exact scripture is because I liked the power at one point of speaking harmful words. I wrote this to say that there's a time and a place to speak and when not to. I used to speak evil now I speak in tongues which is my heavenly language and I am working on my delivery to people.
As I bring this to a close I want to say speak up if the opportunity presents itself! I am a much better writer than a talker. Please don't give up five minutes before the miracle happens! Until we meet again keep trudging the road of righteousness!
Journey to Totality [ Karla ]
Short of twenty four hours ago I was preparing for the biggest thing ever that I had to do. I was watching a scope on Periscope and there was a drawing of balloons in the sky and flowers and a fire. The Holy Spirit spoke to me and asked me how much longer I was going to hold onto a major resentment and pain that my father put me through? I had enough of holding onto it once and for all I was going to take the cotton out of my ears and shut my mouth and listen! I was told to write my resentments on paper and burn it and write a letter to my father and to forgive him. I did then I went to the store and bought a balloon and flowers and I was told to go up to the mountains and tie the letter to the ballon and to let go of it and I did and when I did that I felt the needless guilt and shame that I was carrying inside of me totally gone. I did this at three am Saturday and I now feel so liberated and I feel so relieved! I usually have flashbacks everyday and I have had not one!!! God...
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