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No Definition Zone!

Is your past aiding and crippling you? I asked that question for I understand what it's like to be labeled and defined by this or that or the other. Trust and believe that!
I am a former drug addict and prostitute and I have just recently gotten out of the gay lifestyle and I was defining myself as some drug addict and prostitute even eleven years ago I got out. I know what low self esteem is and lacking confidence in myself and doubting myself. In fact,  I am a doubting Thomas to be quite honest with you. 
I have just recently became a child of God a month ago and I have still been defining my own self as a former prostitute and drug addict for when I was out being pimped out the pimps used to tell me " once a hoe always a hoe and you cannot turn a hoe into a house wife" I believed that until last night when I was spending time with the Lord.
The Lord helped me see that he has delivered me and saved me for his plans and his purpose! I am not defining myself by what pimps told me that I always will be for that is a lie from the pit of hell! Now, that I'm in Christ I will tell you that I am wonderfully and fearfully made in the Lord.
It's a new day folks! Today, is the day that the Lord has made and I will rejoice and be glad that I'm not where I was. I'm not exactly where I want to be yet I am not dead and I have been preserved for a specific purpose and I am to rejoice that I am not there no longer.
In closing I'm going to say that no matter your situation God will make a way out of no way even if it seems like all the doors have closed for my God that I chose to serve on this day is bigger than anything you can ever imagine! Please don't give up five minutes before the miracle happens!
Journey to Totality [ Karla ]

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