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God's Law

In my life I have taken plenty of situations into my own hands and I was self will run riot in some aspects of my life.  I have been angry and downright bitter towards my father and his deacons and elders and his church for very good reasons for they have taken away from me my innocence as a child not to mention my virginity!
I want revenge and my flesh wants to be very vindictive for what happened,  however today I was told by God to live under his law and let him take care of the situation and to rest and relax.  I am not going to even front by saying that I am anything but a relaxing and restful person. 
I don't know how this is going to work yet I'm into a position of walking by faith and not by sight and furthermore to trust in him with all of my heart and not to lean unto my own understanding.
I know that of and by myself and left up to my own devices that I was deep in the grips of Satan for I once was a major player in his playground and now I'm being called to be a prayer warrior and a mighty woman for his purposes and not of my own.  Please don't give up five minutes before the miracle happens!
Journey to Totality [ Karla ]

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