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Anything Is Possible!

Throughout my life a lot l I knew was chaos and confusion and plum brokenness and being brokenhearted.  I know what it's exactly like to feel all alone even though I was in the business of making men feel good.  After awhile I had absolutely nothing but a empty big void in my whole entire life.  I felt as if I was just a object to please men and my pimp would make me feel special then to beat me, rape me and make me feel as if I was nothing. My pimps would tell me " I was there by Choice and not force" that was the biggest lie!
I have walked through many valleys and I was dead in the inside!  I know what it's like to walk around dead and try to act like I'm having a great time.  I went to great lengths to blot out my intolerable situation.  I did massive amounts of drugs and I became a Intravenous drug user at the age of 15 years old.
My favorite scripture in the bible is in Psalms 23:4 " Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,  I will fear no evil for you are with me: your rod and staff they comfort me "
See, God was in my life rather I knew it or not. Today, I know the rod is the word of God and the staff is the Holy Spirit.  I am getting more into touch with the word of God and the Holy Spirit more and more as the days go by. I am still new in Christ however I am going forward in my life through the Power of the Word of God and the Holy Spirit. 
I just moved to a different city and house and I have a great job that I am designed for and that is to help women who has been sexually traumatized now! It is absolutely amazing and rewarding all at the same time.  I don't need any drugs for I have discovered that I get the indescribable ultimate feeling of pure satisfaction and gratitude for helping others for I am being shown that what I went through was not in vain! This is all God for of and by myself and left up to my own devices I got majorly damaged!
In the Lord I'm able to do all things through Christ which strengthens me! I give God the credit for where I am at in just a short period of time as a young Christian!
Please,  if you feel like anything that I just got done describing don't give up five minutes before the miracle happens! Until we meet again remain blessed for you are a worthy individual!
Journey to Totality [ Karla ]

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