A Moment Of Clarity.

As I was praying and reading the word I just had something revealed to me just minutes ago. I'm a new creation in Christ and I am so used to defining myself as a former prostitute and drug addict and I am not seeing what has been happening in the past month as a new creation. 
I have deep resentments and anger and rage and pain inside and I am carrying someone else's guilt and shame that I have no business upholding myself to. I am just now beginning to heal and I hate to admit that I am fragile. Its not like me to open myself up this much, yet I have to be transparent about it. 
Those very resentments and anger and pain inside is going to hold me back.  I feel like Satan is playing with my mind and trying to feed me nonsense and deception by still keeping me captive.  I must start the real work in getting rid of these for my father in Heaven wants so much more for me. This word was very hard to swallow for I am not that old creature anymore.
I am the clay and the almighty is my potter and I must just let the control go so God can move mountains in my life!
In closing I'm going to say that I am a beautiful flower that God is turning into a beautiful woman of God no matter if I feel like my life was in ashes, for its not like that no more through the Power of Redemption through Jesus Christ! I'm not going to give up five minutes before the miracle happens!
Journey to Totality [ Karla ]